I've Got Dreams To Remember

Last night I dreamt me and another person turned into wolves. Therefore I am changing my name to "Runs With Wolves", because literally that's what I was doing, and there were several of them. They were not aggressive, didn't try to attack me, they just growled and barked and howled a lot.

The dream continued and a native american man appeared in the dream wearing a full headdress and we proceeded to have a full on conversation about the spirit world and all things me. If you know me, you know that many of my dreams have prophetic value and on occasion I wake up in other peoples homes (I'll explain that some other time). I haven't the slightest idea why I dream the way I do, and why from time to time I have deja vu involving places I dream about that I'd never been to, and well... I end up in these places and remember them from my dreams when I see them.

Some say that dreams are the gateway to the subconscious, the gateway to the spirit world, the astral plane, or maybe all of the above. I do believe that dreams have a lot to do with our subconscious and what's going on in our lives, and I also believe that our lives and our subconscious are directly linked to the non physical. Of course depending on what you've been brought up to believe, this may be total bullhockey to you; but based on my own experience it's very much a part of my life.

In regards to dreams, depending on the dream and how tired I am, I'd say about 80% give or take, of my dreams, I don't remember. I will remember bits and pieces most of the time, but it's rare that I remember a full dream, and when I do remember a full dream, or a large chunk of a dream, it's usually something I pay attention to.

That's it really, just wanted to blog about my dream because it was a unique one for me. See you on the other side.

Free Trial Gets Got

I'm sure a lot of you have seen those free trials for everything from diet pills to herbal health supplements, where you get a 2-4 (14 to 30 day) trial of a product, and if you like it you keep it and they send you more and bill you.

I've done a few of those, okay I've done several of them, and for the most part I can tell you that most of the products are not worth the 70+ dollars they try to bill you for after you place the order. I can also tell you that in some cases they start billing you before your order has even arrived. Yes the order does get to you, but it can take up to two weeks for them to ship your order, so by the time you get it, your free trial is up.

It's a bogus load of bullshit. First of all, if you're going to offer a free trial, the trial should start AFTER the order has been received, not after you place the order, and if it's a 30 day trial, you shouldn't start billing someone's cc after 2 weeks.

These companies are ripping people off, oh and the best? Most of these products are worth maybe 20.00 a bottle at the most. So why are they billing people over 70 to 80.00 a bottle, or 80 per 2 bottles (which still is not worth it)?

I am in and of the mind that if something says free trial, then it should be just that, free. And because I'm a crafty woman, I have gotten most of my trial products, for no more than the shipping I paid for them. You see, in the trial deals, they say you pay nothing but around 5.00 for shipping, so that's what I pay for, and not a damn dime more.

And I can tell you that most of these companies probably hate my guts.

Here's my advice, if you want to try out one of those free trials? Don't use a major credit card. That's number one. I would tell you what kind of CC to use but that would be letting the cat out of the bag.

My other advice is, DO NOT get any of the acai berry or resveratrol trials. Most of them are made with fillers and some of the supplements are made with caffeine in them to give them that potent kick. Do not get any acai supplements made from "extract" because they don't work. If you get acai berry get it in powdered form in capsules made from the whole berry and make sure they do not contain seeds. The powdered berry caps sell for around 20-30.00 and there are a few co's that make the pure acai pulp powder capsules, and a powder for making smoothies if you don't want the capsules.

As for resveratrol, same thing, if you buy it make sure it contains no fillers, Res V costs around 30.00 a bottle, so far I've seen two reputable co's that make the stuff that seem legit, the rest are iffy and most are offering the bogus free trial and do not offer a lot information. In my experience, and this is my advice to anyone: If a co. cannot tell you what's in the bottle, don't buy it. Point blank. I don't trust any co. that tries to sell you something and nowhere on the website are the ingredients listed.

Other products I've gotten free trials of that work? Aside from Acai and ResV which I said NOT to get from a free trial co. there are a few legit companies offering free trials. One is Juvenon, which makes resV, and honestly that's the only legit company that I've seen so far.

So there's my free trial story for the day. Stay away from free trials for Acai and ResV, if you would like more info on which sites sell the legitimate supplements you guys know where to find me, I don't work for these people so I'm not about to start advertising.

New Orleans and The Vagina Monologues - A Brazilian Experience

I am no longer a brazilian bikini wax virgin. Hell I'm no longer a bikini wax virgin. I went all the way out and did the unthinkable, and waxed an area that had never been waxed before.

So what was it like? Uh.... honestly? It hurt. I'm not going to lie to you and tell you that my first brazilian bikini wax experience was anything but painful. I'll put it to you like this: As I had been forewarned by others, everyone's experience is different, everyone's skin is not the same, hair is not the same, threshold for pain is not the same; but the first time - I have been told - is the worst in regards to discomfort.

But I took it like a trooper, closed my eyes, and let a complete stranger handle the goods down south. Yeah... I flinched a few times, but like I said, I was a very good, calm, first timer. There was no screaming, no YEEEOOOOOWWWWWing, and a few times during the procedure I managed to have an out of body experienced that helped me get through it. It always helps when you can mentally go to your happy place while in a compromising and uncomfortable position.

Some spots were uh... more "ouchy" than others, but the end result? FABULOUS! I don't have to shave anything, no extra maintenance required, and my cat was a happy one. All in all I was more nervous about showing a complete stranger my china cabinet, than I was about getting it done.

So you're probably wondering, will I do it again? OF COURSE! Mind you I'll have to find someone locally to go to, but I'm all for repeating the experience. The spa I went to in New Orleans was a very nice one, don't ask me what the name of it was, it was inside a hotel and honestly I don't remember, I just remember it was near where I was staying and within walking distance.

And what about the rest of my New Orleans experience? I LOVED IT!!!! NOLA is going on my favorite cities list. My favorite cities so far being New York (okay so I'm biased cuz I'm actually from there), Vegas, the L.A. and surrounding area, can you tell I like BUSY cities? What gave it away? We won't talk about my least favorite cities, I actually only have one on that list, let's not go there, I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

I'm not going to go into full detail about my trip because if you're on the other site you've already read about it, but for those wondering, I had to blog about all things Brazilian because I had promised to do so. Hope you enjoyed it.

Michael Jackson

In all fairness - and I really am all about fairness - MJ had a rough life. Granted he could have turned it around and changed certain things, but when you snatch someone out of their childhood, rob them of having a childhood, and stick them into the limelight at such a young age, what you get is what you get.

I don't think it was fair. I mean yes, both he and Janet are two of the most successful stars in the entertainment business and have had a long running; The Jacksons were very successful as a group. But at what price?

MJ had a lot of demons, but you can never say that man didn't have talent, he had more than talent, and it's sad to see someone so misunderstood and so talented being constantly bashed and mocked by the media. I don't think he deserved all of that. Yeah we all know about the negative stories we've heard, but honestly who really has a right to say who or what he is?

I think it's time for all of us to take a step back and think about the fact that, a lot of us do from time to time get caught up in an artist personal life, and we get the personal mixed up with the public. And we also seem to forget that while they are in the public eye a lot, these people do have private lives, personal lives, and as a human being we do not have the right to interfere with that.

How would you feel if it was you who's personal life was constantly invaded and you couldn't go anywhere without getting your picture taken, unless you went somewhere desolate and devoid of media implants? Some say that once you become famous, your life belongs to everyone else. I disagree. No matter where you are in life, your life belongs to you. And ultimately you are the only person that YOU have to answer to.

If MJ had decided he was done with showbiz and wanted to live out the rest of his life as a recluse, and stay home and raise his kids, I don't think I would blame him one bit. I think he wanted what anybody wants, to be happy, to be around people he cared for and vice versa; I just don't think he had the right outlets around him when he was younger, and being so young and constantly in the spotlight, that can take its toll on a person. We all need private time, alone time, time to reconnect. Maybe now he finally has that, and his spirit can be at peace.

His music will always be with us. And for his talent, his gift, and his music, I thank him. I grew up listening to his music and his music was a huge part of my childhood. He is truly an artist I will never forget.

Life and Death

Yesterday I celebrated the 9th birthday of my only child. Directly after that, at about midnight, I found out that someone had passed away. This is someone I had grown up knowing all through highschool, and she'd been like a second grandmother to me; especially since one of my grandmothers died when I was a baby, and the other passed on when I was still in highschool.

So you can imagine how eerie that feels, to celebrate life and have a death right behind it. Granted yes, life and death happen everyday, and it's a part of life, but when it's someone you know, or someone you're close to, it sets a really eerie tone. That whole circle of life deal.

Of course, when someone passes you also celebrate their life, and you do your best to focus on the fact that they led a full life while they were in this world, and she did. She lived to see her children and grandchildren grow up, and I think that's as important as anything else.

But this also reminds me that we are all getting... well, I hate to use the word older, so I will just say that at some point, our parents and grandparents are not going to be here. It seems so selfish when you think about how you couldn't imagine life without them, because they brought you into this world, and you take for granted that they'll always be here, and you push those other thoughts out of your mind. The ones that tell you that, physically speaking, one day they won't be there.

But we are selfish aren't we? We want our parents and grandparents to live forever and always be there, and we get so caught up in the flesh that we forget about the spirit. They WILL always be there for you. You may not be able to see them, or hug them, or kiss them hello, but they don't stop being there for you just because they've left their bodies behind.

Of course yes, this sounds great, but it doesn't sound so great when your grieving. I'm not necessarily grieving per say, but I am sad that I will not see her again, in this lifetime. The last time I saw her was a couple of years ago. I am not sad, because I know she's no longer suffering. She lived through cancer, then lived through the onset of aging, and arthritis, and then cancer again. I think towards the end she was ready to move on, and I am happy that her spirit is in a better place.